Night Trouble
Sleepless and troubled nights. I’ve been feeling really heavy lately. I don’t feel going out nor talk to anyone.
Recently, I’ve been so pressured with a lot of things. I’m maybe overreacting because I know there are a lot of people fighting harder battles than me. But, who are you to blame? No one should invalidate anyone’s emotions, feelings or whatnot. So, take a seat!
I can’t help but to question myself, am I really worth it? To be part of someone else’s life? To make an impact to somebody maybe? Tbh, I’ve been feeling useless and worthless for the past few days. It’s disturbing. This is from a girl who wants nothing but to spread good vibes and positivity to everyone. Please, allow me to be a little dramatic here. I just really want to let this all out once and for all. My heart is so heavy!! I just don’t know where to rant my thoughts without getting any judgement. I’m really thankful I created this blog. My escape. My safe haven.
As I enter “adulthood” I’ve come to realize that in this life, it’s not gonna be sunshine and rainbows all the time. You will always have thunderstorms or even blizzard once in awhile. You just need to give it time and let it subside. Every time I go through my “thunderstorm” phase, reading inspirational quotes has really helped me. (Exhibit A: *photo above*. Tehee!). Thank you, Pinterest!! It is one way to get my shit back together. Hindi pwede pa-patay sa life, Cokie! Go!
Remember, when life comes at you like a bitch, you need to slap that bitch real hard! You are the strongest, self. Pause and breathe when needed. It’s never bad to take a little break from your chaotic mind. You’ve been through a lot, and you reached this far. Don’t let those demons eat you. Eat them, instead. Eat them with positivity!
THIS TIME NEXT YEAR, NOTHING WILL BE THE SAME. Yup, this is temporary.
That’s all! See you on my next one! xx
Sunday, June 2, 2019. Should I say “summer is officially over?”. Nope. Never! Summer should be everyday! Regardless what month it is, go hit the beach and wear that bikini! It’s therapeutic.
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